Great stuff, Mike. I feel your enthusiasm and joy about the course. Man it's tough not to feel but your enthusiasm is infectious! And hell yes it welcomes and encourages creative play - likely more than any course on the planet - the RESULTS just don't always come out like one intends, as you shall see when you play it more...
But anyway, I'm a different sort, preferring to play many courses a few times than one many times, so I can't say I'd do the same as you. But that being said, I sure wouldn't mind a life where I could play TOC, oh, say 200 times.
BTW, I did experience randomness. The more you play it, the more likely that is to occur... and the more the fear will deepen.
One more BTW - I know we discussed this before, but you're take that you can't see yourself breaking 80 there continues to surprise me... I found that miss the bunkers, putt well, and this can be done - all fear aside - as my 74 in my 2nd round (including choke-filled bogeys on 16 and 17) attests. You can play the game as well or better than I can... And several other regulars here have achieved good scores there...
Of course achieving a score is sure as hell not what it's about on TOC, I just mention this because I find your pessimism curious. The course is many things, but truly difficult is not one of them.
TH