I think my essay accurately identifies myself with Asperger-like traits, and does not conclude I have Asperger's.
"I also exhibit many other listed symptoms. I took an online Autism Spectrum Quotient test, and scored near that arbitrary line where those who score higher are typically identified as "Aspies". I read the book “Parallel Play" by Tim Page, a man with Asperger's Syndrome who struggled to find his place in society, but is now a recognized music critic and professor of musicology. His condition is more severe; he struggles with depression and anxiety, whereas I’ve learned to combat depression with physical exercise and menial tasks. Tim Page’s writing is beautiful, more refined and eloquent than I could hope for."
This has turned out to be a more sensitive subject than I imagined. My reasons for writing the piece are complex, but they have their origins in two of John Kavanaugh's threads ("Why would someone want to play with you?" and "Are you a critic?"), plus the global warming thread.
"Bared my soul to the crowd eh but oh what the cost
Most of them laughed out loud like nothing's been lost
There were hypocrites and parasites and people that drain
Tell me why must I always explain."
-- Van Morrison, "Why Must I Always Explain?"
I was angry when I first wrote this, and modified it later. There are many examples of successful people who were identified as having Asperger's, and the listed symptoms are so consistent with my personality traits that I see no need to investigate further. In fact, thinking about all this the last two or three months has made me half crazy. Half.
I wrote a story for this website, one that makes people think. This site is to "promote frank commentary on golf course architecture." I'm happy to have prompted some serious discussion about the role of a critic, and the nature of course analysis.
And Sarge, I modified things a bit so they didn't seem so angry.